50 shades of blue (EN)

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English, Iran

‘Trien, where has your smile gone?’
After three days of Iran, my much promised land, I suddenly realised that since crossing the border in Noorduz I have laughed little or not at all.

Where I usually cheerfully wave to everybody, loudly shout the local ‘hello’ or smile, I have now remained silent. Silent from my mouth, silent in my heart.

Iran, my promised land, the land of unrivaled hospitality, overwhelming nature, ancient culture. Of majestic mosques and an abundance of fruit, nuts and dates that are so well-loved. That country was not what I had expected.

Since last September a fatwa was proclaimed forbidding cycling for women. Was that the cause? Was that the reason why I was ignored or watched disapprovingly? That fatwa was just intended for locals, not for tourists, right?

Or was it me? I didn’t know what attitude to adopt and I cycled on the road all tense. I felt caught, isolated, both by hijab and dress and through my ignorance of the Farsi. Not only the alphabet is different, the figures as well. No one en route spoke English but that actually may not be a problem.

I felt not at all welcome. Even if on the first day, the police alleged the opposite. Up to eight times I had to stop and show my passport, followed by the words ‘welcome in Iran’.

Seven days later, finally …

I smiled thanks to the nice encounter with my couchsurf host Nassim in Urmia. I was able to communicate. Merriment! She told me how much she hates the hijab (you too?) and how horrible she finds that woman in Iran are suppressed (for sure). She told about her resulting two-year depression and the hope of emigration (fingers crossed).

I smiled thanks to the reunion with Mohammad and Bahram in Isfahan and the fun days I’ve spent with them. From an ‘underground’ birthday party, visit to the family, falafel on the go to a visit to many cultural heritage sites. Iranian beauty and hospitality galore!

I smiled thanks to small encounters on the way, sometimes by a lonely sweet farmer, then an enthusiastic chappie on a bike or a man who invited me for a hot tea when I cycled through the snow.

I smiled less at the many asphalt roads, the traffic, the rushing trucks, the giant distances and my endless quest for unpaved terrain. Even Google Earth often couldn’t help me.

I smiled less through the daily, countless cars along the way that awaited me or followed. To ask me where I come from and where I am cycling to. Even though it was well intended.

I didn’t smile at pursuits of guys on motorcycles, riding next to you, starting to grope, turning around and repeating the same action, up to three times.

I didn’t smile at questions of being together on the photo and the sudden feel of a stranger’s hand on your breast.

I didn’t smile at all when I was followed by a tough guy on a motorcycle. Who pulled me off my bike, tried to throw me in a sandpit next to the road and tried to rape and strangle me.

No. I cried, I was empty, exhausted and felt enormously misunderstood. Because, ‘Well, in each country you do have bad people anyway’ it sounded. ‘Uh yes, but three incidents in four cycling days… Sorry, that, I never saw before.’ And ‘Iran has good people. What you say isn’t possible, you are lying, how dare you!’ and ‘Hey, rejoice, you are still alive nevertheless, look at the positive side!’.

Yes, of course, that I tried. I was super grateful that I could escape. That, when I was dragged by my ankles through the sand, I could loosen a foot and kick that guy in his balls, chest and chin and run away.

But it has been enough. I no longer dared to walk in the streets, the slightest moped sound gave me goose bumps and a faster heartbeat. I looked behind me constantly and checked if I haven’t been followed. Paranoia rules!

Hours I’ve spent in the police station.

Hours I was on the line with my sister Griet. What would I have done without her? A ‘thank you sweet sister’ does not cover how grateful I am!

Hours I’ve spent on the Facebook page of ‘Bicycle travelling women’ where I read that I, as solo cycling woman in Iran, wasn’t the only one with bad experiences.

Hours I tried to reminisce good memories of the country but my negative experiences, which followed one another too short after each other, unfortunately prevailed.

50 shades of blue.

Not only in all those dazzling mosques that Iran has to offer, but also on my skin. Bruising became purple, green, yellow. Yellow went away.
And so have I: I have gone away from Iran, my much promised land.
To Oman. To a new country, a new ‘climate’ with new people. And to something new. But that, I keep for next time.

My last try to have a good souvenir of Iran was by going to Qeshm island. Unfortunately also this attempt turned out into a big escape towards Oman #StarsValley #Iran

We are now 2 months on. I feel good, Oman does good. Correction: Oman does great!
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It’s not its people, but the system, the so distorted system that makes some men as they are not supposed to be … So I want to warn all solo cycling women with Iran plans. Forewarned is forearmed, isn’t it?

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Many thanks to Jan Schelstraete, who helped me out through this blogpost with his big red pencil.

45 thoughts on “50 shades of blue (EN)”

  1. Els Rosseau's avatar
    Els Rosseau says:

    Zo blij Trien dat je je uit deze situatie wist te redden… Hoe beangstigend moet dat geweest zijn! Behoud de herinnering aan de positieve ervaringen en ontmoetingen. Succes op je verdere trip, met nog veel moois voor de boeg!

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  2. Unknown's avatar
    Anonymous says:

    Dag Trien, zonet gelezen wat je in Iran hebt moeten doorstaan…..dat moet een vreselijke ervaring geweest zijn. Blij dat je daar weg bent. Ik duim voor je en hoop dat je verdere reis opnieuw mooi wordt! Wees voorzichtig. Liefs x

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    Pim logie says:

    He trien.
    De teleurstelling moet groot zijn ,om te merken , dat het land waar je zo naar uit keek, niet was wat je gehoopt had.
    Goed dat je betere en veiligere oorden hebt opgezocht.
    Je blog is prachtig geschreven en erg inspirerend.
    Sterkte ,t ga je goed.
    Ps. We missen jou wel bij s&s, onze zondagsritten zijn maar behoorlijk saai in vergelijking met jouw avonturen.
    👋🏻👋🏻

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  4. Elke Fordyn's avatar
    Elke Fordyn says:

    Houd je sterk, Trien. Dat doe je ongetwijfeld. Ik denk aan je en wees voorzichtig…X Elke

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  5. annzab@aol.com's avatar
    annzab@aol.com says:

    Hi Trien, Wat een ontgoocheling !!! Gelukkig leef je nog en kan je verder fietsen! Blijf genieten en wees voorzichtig!!! Love you girl!!❤😘

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  6. Edwin Oonk's avatar
    edwinoonk says:

    Het verbaasd me niks, sinds we elkaar in Bakoe ontmoetten heb ik me vaak afgevraagd hoe het met je ging. Ik vraag me oprecht af of het in Oman beter zal zijn, moslimlanden zijn niet ideaal voor een vrouw alleen.

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